I was at a point where I was quickly gaining back the 60+ pounds I had lost in 2006-2007 and in a moment of sheer frustration, one morning I "googled" something (now I can't even exactly what it was) and Lynn's blog popped up. I started at the beginning, read every word and then moved on to Diane's blog. I ended up spending the entire day reading blogs and it was like a whole new world of motivation opened up before me. Suddenly, I was 100% inspired to lose the 30 pounds I had regained and even though I'd yet to even offer a comment on anyone's blog, I knew I had found a community of support that would help me. I also knew that rather than writing a travel blog as I had assumed I would, it immediately became clear that my blog would be much broader and would be about the gains and losses of my life in general. The initial focus would be on my continuing battles with weight loss, but once I reached goal, it would branch out into all those other areas of interest to me. I can't imagine EVER running out of material to write about!!
But for some reason, I still hesitated - I just couldn't get started. I mulled it over for weeks until my husband finally said, "you are way over analyzing this, either do it or don't!" But the doubts and questions remained. Why was I considering it? Was I doing it for me or in the hopes someone else would read it? Who would that be? Should I mention it to friends and family? If I did that, I couldn't be totally open. Or could I? You get the picture!!
And then came April 27. I've been open in the blog about the fact that I am Christian. Worshiping God through corporate worship experiences and daily living, consistently growing in my relationship with Jesus and modeling that to others is the reason I exist. Part of that process is my morning quiet time. I am a morning person and allow nothing to get in the way of that quiet time. Henri Nouwen wrote over 40 books, but one of my favorites is Bread For the Journey: A Daybook of Wisdom and Faith . Although written from a Christian perspective, each day's "wisdom" is applicable to anyone and can be read in less than 60 seconds. I highly recommend it!! On April 27, in the midst of all my doubts about starting a blog, I opened the book and the day's title, "Writing To Save The Day" stared back at me. I read the meditation, then through my tears, read it again...and again...and again. Few times in my life, have I had a clearer answer to a question. I would start the blog. I would start it as a spiritual discipline for ME but in the process, would hope it might be helpful to others who begin reading it along the way.
April 28th and April 29th meditations were also on the subject of writing and were equally as pertinent to the struggles I'd been experiencing. On April 30th, the reading moved away from the subject of writing, but the title of that days meditation was, "Losing And Gaining Our Lives." This may sound crazy, but I swear, I heard an audible voice that said, "Sharon, there is the title of your blog. Now go get started." And I did. It was 14 more days before I posted the first entry, but I began the groundwork that day.
For those who might be interested, maybe thinking of starting their own blog, considering discontinuing their current blog or just disenchanted with the whole process, and for me, ten years from now when I want to remember how this all got started, here are those meditations:
It is my sincere desire that you find something in the words of this blog which provide encouragement and meaning in your own struggles. I write this blog for me, but I also write it for you. Thank you for taking the time to read.