Moving Forward, But Not On!

 

Sunset - Maggie Valley, North Carolina

August, 2019 

Have you ever stopped to consider what fills your soul with peace no matter what might be happening in your life?  Peace doesn’t necessarily mean all is well or everything is in order as it should be, but it does carry with it a sense of calm even if only momentarily.  I believe everyone has that “place,” but are often so wrapped up in the immediate that we never stop long enough to find it.  We convince ourselves it isn’t there.  Life is just too crazy and there is no relief. 

For me, that “place” of peace is the mountains.  Any mountains will do, but particularly my beloved Great Smoky Mountains.  Sometimes, I feel that if I can just SEE them, I’ll be o.k.! Thankfully, seeing them isn’t difficult from most any area within 50 miles of my home!  But being in them is even better, a gift that only one who knows their peace is found here can truly understand.  I am currently in my second week of a “retreat” in a cabin at 4300 feet elevation on the North Carolina side of the Smokies!  I couldn’t be more content and at peace. 

 

My cabin porch - Maggie Valley, North Carolina

August, 2019

 

You might say I’ve come full circle since March 18, 2015 and you’d be partially right.  You might say I’m no longer in deep grief and you’d be partially right.  You might say I seem normal and you’d be partially right.  You might say I am back to my “old self” and you’d be partially right.  You would be 100% correct in saying that I’ve moved forward, but don’t ever make the mistake of saying I’ve moved on! 

You don’t move on from a life you loved that lasted 40 of your 64 years.  It is so incredibly hard, but you learn to take the fragments of what was into what is.  Moving on implies that you leave something behind.  Moving forward invites you to take it with you and celebrate what was, what is and new things that are to come! 

 Sunrise from my cabin porch

Maggie Valley, North Carolina

August, 2019

There is nothing more symbolic to me of my own personal growth than these mountains.  This past fall, I helped my 91 year old mother move into an independent living facility and part of that journey was cleaning out the home she and my dad built when I was 10 years old.  I found drawers full of pictures I’d never seen before.  Pictures of me at all ages.  Picture after picture of a laughing and happy Sharon playing freely in these mountains.  Throwing rocks and sticks in the river, running up a trail holding my daddy’s hand, roasting marshmallows in a campground, reading a book on a rock by the river, etc.  Looking back over a lifetime of pictures finds not only these Tennessee/North Carolina mountains, but mountains all over the world in so many of them. 

Intuitively, I’ve always known that mountains spoke to my soul in a way nothing else could.  I guess it’s just in the last few years that I’ve come to really understand the significance of that.  I had to be still and I had to listen. It’s all part of moving forward. 

 

 

Lake Junaluska, North Carolina

August, 2019

Have you found your place of peace?  It’s a place worth finding and a journey worth taking?

 Maggie Valley, North Carolina

August, 2019