Now, we all know the easy answers here. Of course, I had choices. Of course, I could have stopped at any time and the outcomes would have been different. But that's the whole point of this post. It is a genuine roadblock in my journey to "normal" and until I take it apart bit by bit, I will continue to rebel when found in these types of "no choice" situations. And if I look back over the past year, I can identify every single downward spiral and prove that it began in an instant with a situation almost identical to yesterday's. It is NOT about the food! It is about control and it is about anger.
So what am I to do? This will not be solved in a day or probably not in a year, but I still believe putting it together is a colossal step forward. I've seen the pattern of one situation becoming a day/week/month long binge, but have always just thought, "I've messed up now, I'll restart tomorrow," and never connected the whole event to a single circumstance or event.
So here are my lessons from the Banyan Tree. The Banyan Tree in today's picture was a gift to Thomas Edison from Harvey Firestone in 1925. The most interesting fact about the Banyan Tree (native to India) is its aerial prop roots which extend from the main trunk and spread so quickly that it eventually becomes difficult to identify the original trunk. The Banyan Tree at the Edison/Ford Winter Estate began as a 4-foot tall, 2 inch diameter sapling presented by Firestone to Edison in a butter tub. It was transplanted on the estate and now it's prop roots cover more than an acre.
1) Redirect Your Thoughts!