While hiking this past Saturday, I had a "ah-ha" moment. When I am on the trail, I do not think about food. In fact, the only time food crosses my mind is when my stomach suddenly growls loudly telling me to feed it. This is not necessarily a good thing, because a hiker safety rule is to always hydrate and/or eat BEFORE you sense hunger or thirst.
Outdoor activity in the form of hiking and biking is my passion. Lacing up those boots and stepping onto a trail brings out a feeling in me I cannot describe. When on the trail I feel alive and I can breathe more deeply than at any other time. And yesterday, for the first time, I embraced the fact that there truly is something I'd rather do than eat. Ironic, isn't it, that at a time I'm burning more calories and need to be refueled more often, I'm thinking less about the the whole process?
Our pastor gave an illustration Sunday morning that got me to thinking about this. He was relating this to our "wants" vs. God's "desires" for us, so I am taking it somewhat out of context, but as you know, I try to find relevance in anything that will help me in this weight loss journey. From Dallas Willard's book, "The Divine Conspiracy, we are told that we often think we know what we want or desire, but those lesser things are not REALLY what we need. What we need is for our wants to change. In other words, we need a new "want-er." As we change our "want-er," then our wants and desires are changed to higher things.
I believe that this is what happens to me on the hiking trail. I am so at one with nature and in touch with who I really am that everything else, including food and preoccupation with weight, becomes secondary. Eating assumes it's proper place as fuel for my body and is something I must do in order to have strength to continue rather than something I count the minutes until I do and treasure nothing that happens between this moment and that one.
Oh how I desire to change my "want-er" to desire the higher things of total health, fitness, inner beauty, peace, moderation and contentment more than the temporary satisfaction of the wants like the next bagel(s), the box of Triscuits, dreams of what wonderful goodies will be served at small group tonight, the dinner party I'm attending on Friday night, sugar, white flour, and on, and on, and on...................................
When I'm on the hiking trail, I've experienced that meshing of my "want-er" being in the right place. It feels really, really good. My prayer for myself, and for you, is that we can all find that in every area of our lives. Then we will truly be free.
Your responses to my last post are printed and posted as promised. I know them all and will keep my promise to remember you and your specific needs every day. In whatever form of spiritual direction you follow, please specifically remember Deb tomorrow. She is having a lumpectomy that she has been assured is benign, but we all know that doctors are not perfect and this does involve anesthesia. Rest assured that I will keep all your things you wrote me private as I promised, but since Deb posted about this on her blog, I thought it would be o.k. to mention it here.
I'd really like to reach goal by December 31st, but I think I'm becoming more interested in changing my "want-er." The Master "want-er" wants far more from Sharon than a number on the scale. When Sharon finally sees that and joins in instead of fighting it, "all these things shall be added unto her."