Here are some observations from my behavior today. At both of the restaurants where I was "treated," there were decent choices I could have made. I just didn't. Why? Two things come to mind. 1) I am so full of sugar and white flour that I've lost all ability to reason. I look at a menu and my eyes gravitate towards the menu items which contain high concentrations of those items and lots of calories. I've fallen back in the trap of addiction to those items and will have to "detox" (translation: spend a miserable few days until sugar and flour are out of my system) before I am free again and my body feels light. 2) I am so focused on September 1 as a new start date that the "old" me (the one that diets instead of eating healthy) believes I should stuff myself until then because that's the day the "diet" starts.
Neither of those excuses are acceptable to me, so I plan to fight back by resuming healthy eating as of this very moment. I am sick of feeling this way, frustrated with myself for letting it continue this long, and determined that there is no mountain high enough to get in the way of this girl getting her energy back and reaching her goal weight by December 31.
I am not aware of any obstacles on the horizon and I have spoken lovingly with MIL about the fact that I have gained some weight and it cannot continue. So having said all that, I officially declare myself in detox.
Here's what that means: (there's no new material here - you've seen this before from me, but it works!)
1) No white flour
2) No white sugar (and as little sugar of any kind as possible)
3) 1200 calories per day
4) no less than 10,000 steps per day
5) no dining out
6) post food, weight and daily steps on blog
7) post each day's greatest challenge and greatest joy
I like and am using the Strategies for Success that I posted a few days ago, so here they are again:
1) Print comments from recent posts and place on pantry door, fridge, kitchen cabinets and freezer
11) Use my gift card from Bike Zoo
12) Buy a new hiking book and work on a fall hiking plan.
13) Make the changes that I've wanted to make on my blog and set some new goals for it.
To sum it up, I'm looking at 36-48 hours of feeling like you know what, then I'll gradually start feeling pretty good again. Within a week, I'll have my energy back and the cravings for sugar and white flour will have subsided. At some point in the future, I'll go back and do some serious evaluation as to why this became the setback that it did. Yes, I had compelling reasons to let go a bit, but it shouldn't have gone this far and at some point, I could've/should've stopped it. I really want to dig deeper into that so maybe I can prevent it from happening in the future.
But for now, I just want to move forward with determination and see some progress. Yes, the road is long, the canyon is deep, the river is wide, the mountains are high, but nothing will keep me from reaching my goal. And to quote one of my favorite movie characters, "that's all I'm going to say about that."