The Canyon Is Deep

Grand Canyon - May, 2007

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take

but by the moments that take your breath away."

  This one certainly took my breath away!

 

As you might have predicted, this "get back on track" plan isn't as cut and dried as I had hoped.  The road is long, the canyon is deep, the river is wide and the mountains are high.  So, yes, I am cutting myself some slack and giving myself room to breathe.  The short-term goals have changed because I can't meet them by September 1.  The strategies for meeting the goals have not changed.   In my enthusiasm, I failed to take into consideration several "events" I have to face between now and September 1.  So, in addition to being on a binge to start with, I attended a formal function last evening in which I had no control.  This would have set me back even had I been fully "on plan."  Since when does "heavy hors d'oeuvres" mean absolutely NOTHING healthy?  There was not one single thing on that table that would have constituted a "good" choice.  I was very disappointed.  There are a couple of other events like this coming up.  They are tied to Mr. B's work and a pretty aggressive fundraising campaign, so I have to be on my best behavior.  Fortunately, all occur prior to September 1, so I've set that date as a target date to be fully back on track.  

 

I am spending 3-4 hours each day with MIL helping with all business and financial aspects of FIL's death. She prefers morning hours which takes away the time I'd grown accustomed to spending reading and writing in Blogland.  For a time, my posting may be a bit more sporadic than usual, but I hope to be back to almost daily posting soon.  My sincere appreciation to Margie who wrote an entire post based on a comment I had left in response to this post of hers.  Check it out.  If you haven't faced this already, you will and she has dealt with it more than once. 

 

Here are my revised goals for today until next Wednesday, September 1:

1)  Weigh every day no matter what.  (I've gained six pounds - EEK!!)

2)  Accept that I WILL have a weight gain for the month of August and move on.

3)  Do the best I can between now and 9/1 looking towards that date as a new beginning.

4) Get my daily steps (10,000) in as I've done so faithfully for four years now.  

 

Here's the plan for today:

1) To MIL's at 1 with long list of things to do.  Mr. B will be with us and dinner out is the plan.  We have a gift card from one of the nicer restaurants in town that we need to use.  MIL has never been to this restaurant so we decided to take her out.  FIL did NOT enjoy eating out even when he was healthy, so this is something that makes her happy.  Do you see a HUGE trap here for me????

2) I will stop by riverfront and get my walking done before going to MIL's.

3) I can eat consciously and remain in control at this restaurant.  

4) I have talked with MIL and told her I am trying to get back on my healthy eating plan.  Would she mind making sure all the leftover desserts and cool whip, nutty, fruity salady things are out of sight. 

 

Here's the plan for tomorrow:

1) Normal Saturday trek to Farmer's Market.  I can't wait.  This is one of our favorite outings and we haven't been in four weeks.  

2) Rest of day dedicated to getting our house and yard back in order.  Both are a wreck and accomplishing that will put both of us in a more positive frame of mind.  

 

I can do this, it's just going to take more time and adjustment than I had originally thought.